When starting to think about IVF often you run into a ton of emotions. From finally there is an answer to your problems, to the dreaded, how are you going to pay for this. Often in there is the dreaded fear of all the injections that you will have to pump into yourself. After a while you may convince yourself that everything will be okay. That you will not be terrified of doing this. You really do want to do ANYTHING to have a baby… then you get THE BOX!
The monster thing it is! Mine looked just like it would hold a baby! Maybe the doctor shipped my baby to me insted. I really can’t open this box up… but if it is a baby I should at least allow it to breath right? After a few deep breaths you open it up and discover a maze of needles and packages that say refrigerate this and leave this one at room temperture. You start second guessing your choice of “room temperture”. I mean I like it at 72. Is that good for my meds? This corner has a bit of a draft, maybe I should put it closer to the center of the room. Oh that might be tricky with my next dinner party with this all hanging out there. What sort of questions will people ask. Ugg! Must avoid this. I know, I will take a thermometer and go around my room and find the ideal spot for the meds and put them there… in this closet, surrounded by a blanket.
Now you look at your refrigerated meds. Where should this go? Now for me this question was easy. They got their own little dorm style refrigerator. I could make them happy in there and not bother my other food. However for other people this isn’t an option. So where do you put those? Some try the crisper or the shelf, maybe the egg tray… yeah that would be a great spot after all they will help you make eggs!
Now those needles! Do they really expect me to inject myself with these? How am I going to do this? I REALLY want a baby but is this really the only way? Sadly this is one area where you just have to live through it to know that they really are not that bad. Yeah it isn’t fun, but at least your not having to be awake when they do the egg retrieval and take out the REALLY big needles.
Inside my box was 2 sharps containers, more needles and syringes then I could ever use, alcohol wipes, Repronex, Gonal F, Lupron, Noverel, Progesterone in Ethyl Oleate, Doxycycline (antibiotic), Medrol (steroid), and prometrium. I used this corner of my bedroom to stage all of this. It worked well for me.
Don’t worry you can and will get through this. The big box turns smaller and smaller after a few days into your cycle. By the time your done, you are thankful and just pray that it will work… and odds are it will!
Jennifer (BL-3 ladybugs)